Friendship

What is friendship in the first place?
Is it something you hold on to when you're feeling lonely? Something to fight for with your life? Or merely something you can just wash your hands off without a second thought?
Everyone has different views and opinions about friendship, probably due to the different priorities in life and different upbringing during childhood. What the fuck happened to platonic relationships between guys and girls man. The fuck. Is every girl out there someone you should fall in love with? Can there be just a friend of the opposite sex just being a good friend? Why do some people get so fucking confused with these lines? Why can't there be friendship that is pure, and everlasting? Why do people screw each other over? And finally, why the fuck am I cursing so much?
Sigh.
As adults, I find that we must at times see for ourselves what is right and what is wrong. That is also a part of growing up. Dealing with this dilemma is a way of growing, emotionally more than any other departments. Think with an unbiased mind, see with your own eyes, and then judge based on your observations. There can be no certain way of saying what you did was right or wrong, but because you made your decision, you have to pay the price.
I guess im not being very Buddhist about this topic. And I really should just try to follow the middle path. Sigh. I do disappoint myself sometimes. Most of the time.
Maybe i just need sleep.
This world is a screwed up place. But still sometimes you find things to be happy about. When good friends come along, i say hold on to them, and treat them like how you would treat yourself. Because it never dies.
Because you allow a good friendship to die if it does.
But you made the decision. Im contradicting myself arent i?
I need sleep.
I need dreams.
And a blanket to hide them.
Nites.